Losing My Grandpa

It was a Saturday morning. I  woke up with tears in my eyes had the craziest dream ever. Like I was losing something but didn't know what it was. So I just went on with my day took a nice hot shower then put some clothes on.

Walking in the kitchen seeing my dad sitting on the chair. Running as fast as I could to get to him I jumped on his lap in tears telling him how much I missed and love him. Seeing me so happy and shocked tears just flowed down his face to his shirt.

 With happiness's as the day go's on feeling so happy and thankful that my dad is out of prison. As it gets late worrying where my mom is so my dad comes home and tells me to get in the car I don't even question him then he says we have some where to go as we get to the hospital sitting in the car wondering why I'm here.

We get out the car I shut my door BAM! as we start to walk to the door. My dad says papa passed away so I'm sitting here wondering okay this can't be right because I just talked to him yesterday and he was fine.

 So we get in the hospital and my cousin Brittany runs out of the hospital and brake down to the ground crying my dad go's to get her and brings her back in. I'm just so confused right now as we get to the waiting room my mom gets up and walks me into the room with my sister as i see my grandpa lay in a hospital bed.

 My mama beings to talk she says look at your grandpa he is gone he's in a better place as she starts to cry. Mama he's just sleep that's all hold on as I being to stop my self what you mean he in a better place!? tears going down her face as she beings to speak NO! ALYIA! NO! he's dead.

Not saying a word I brake brake down to my knees and hands screaming, and crying NO! PAPA! as i being to run toward my papa screaming and crying PAPA! PLEASE! WAKE UP! PLEASE! PAPA! DON'T DIE ON ME! PLEASE! but he had already passed as I fall to the floor my dad picks me up telling me it's okay when I know it's not crying so hard and loud I being to stop.

Then start again as I'm sitting on my dad lap I start to put my arm around him as he do the same. Telling me I'm gonna be okay as I stop crying my mama holds her hands out I rush into her hands and arms I grab her tight and we all walk out to the car I get in slamming the door so upset as my mom get in she beings to speak It's okay sweetie. She beings to drive off as we fly down the highway I being to dose off thinking about the man I loved and looked up to the most my grandpa. LOVE YOU GRANDPA Rest.In.Peace

Wishing Things Were The Same....

It's just something about Josh 

Which is love & happiness 

He wanna be with me but without the stress

I don't know what to do or say anymore

My heart is broken & also tore

It's just something about Josh 

That makes me wanna cry

Holding my face with tears falling from my eyes

I don't wanna loose him not after all this & what we been through

The chicks that like him are dismissed it's just me & you

It's not like I know what to do as for me I'm just wishing that my wish will come true

Love

Love is a four letter word

 that means a lot to some people in this world,

it is a word people say to there family or friends

 it is not good to take love to far for when you say it to your boyfriend/girlfriend

 because when you say it and mean it then you end up getting your heat broken

 or getting hurt or you loose them,

 it's gonna be hard to let go of someone you truly love and or care about

 and just because someone tells you they love you doesn't mean it's true,

 you have to say it like you mean it or give him or her a reason

 why you fell so deeply in love with them

 just because someone tell you they want you

 or wanna be with you doesn't mean they deserve you,

 If you love something let it go if it comes back to you it's yours

 if it doesn't, it never was and it's not meant to be,

 you should not cry over no worthless guys or girls

 because if they didn't keep there promise

which there promise would go a little like this

 I promise I will never cheat on you or do you wrong

 I'm always gonna be here for you but in stead they dating you

 and like a bunch of other chicks or dudes and telling them the same thing

 then theirs no use in crying because you did your part

 which is love him or her  and be there for them,

 there is no trust in this world everybody lying for no reason

 when you can just tell the truth "The Truth Will Set You Free".

Someone will always try to ruin it for you like me I was in love with this guy

 but we had a on and off relationship until I just let him go it was hard 

but when I did my life changed I was doing better I wasn't stress I was hurt

 I wasn't heart broken I was happy but I let him go because he didn't only want me

 he wanted other girls to so I left him along let him do him and I do me

 so love is a strong word use it wisely and not to often only for the right reasons trust me it helps a lot.

Missing Youu

A hurricane flew around my room
before you came it wasn't for me to
blame my life is not the same quit
playing these stupid games without
you is just a shame, my eyes don't shed tears, but , boy, they bawl.

When i'm missing you
(Ooh ,na , na , na)
I've been missing you
(You know , oh ,oh)
I've been missing you
Do you miss me still ?
Do you, Do you,

Or do it ever cross your mind (I.....Love...You)
Cause I've been loven you forever (Oooh ,Oooh)

Or do it ever cross your mind (I...Care..For..Youu)
Cause I've been caring bout you forever (Ooh,Ooh)

No I don't want you to go, i just want us ta last for..ever
Got to find away to make this relationship better,
Since you think that i don't miss you, I just thought you
were nice that's why I kissed you
Got A mix up my emotions, so I want have to cry nooo... moree

I'm sitting' here missing' you
(Ooh, Na , Na ,Na)
I've been missing you
(You Know , Oh , Oh)
I've been missing you
Do you miss me still ?
Do you, Do you,

Or do it ever cross your mind (I....Love...You)
Cause I've been loven you forever (Ooh , Ooh)

Or do it ever cross your mind (I...Care..For)
Cause I've been caring bout you forever (Ooh , Ooh)

Yeah, Of Corse I can Remember, when we first met
and how you feeled .
I know it wasn't my last time a new feel.
It will never get old not If I...Love...You
We can keep this relationship A...Live
cause we can be togeather to this
Dating turn into husband and wife.

Or do it ever cross your mind (I...Love...You)
Cause I've been loven you forever (Ooh ,Ooh)
 

Finding The Right Guy

My parents say I’m to young to know about love but as for me I think I   do...

Tre was the sweetest guy I ever met.  He has dreads, and he’s cute, so we got to know each other.  So then he asked me out and I said yeah, and we went out for at least 3 weeks but then before you know it I broke up with him.  I didn’t know our relationship was going to be like some of my other relationships which involves us seeing each other.  Which we didn’t do much of so we talked it out and started seeing each other a little bit more then what we use to.  

So I decided to give him another chance we had more like a on and off relationship, which kind of made me give up a little because it seemed like there was no one out there good enough for me.  

I did feel a little lonely until I met this gorgeous guy named Joshua Hollis.  He was a nice kind of shy type of person but I could deal with that.  So we got to know each other by asking Questions like how old are you, or whats your last and first name, or when is your birthday and etc.  Then he asked me out and I say yes sooo...  we started dating and like he is so protective over me.  He is always there for me when I'm down he always getting me something for my birthday, or Christmas, and also any other holiday.  We have been going out for 5 mouths almost 6 mouths it will be 6 months on the 29th of January, when I need a shoulder to cry on it will always be his.

But everything happened so fast for the last 2 days.  A big arguement broke out, things went on and he moved back to Detriot.  Its so hard to get over because it all happend so fast.  I miss him so dearly much that I don't want to go on without him.  Without me being under his wing guiding me, loving me, and caring for me.  I thought we would make it through life together but things changed, and fast.  When I talked to him, heard his soft voice, It was no doubt in my mind that made me feel better.

But don’t worry if your single God’s looking down on you right now saying I’m saving her for someone special love is all about waiting for the right person.